just a small town girl, living in a lonely world

I.
Am.
A.
Scatter-brained moron.

I know it for a fact and nothing can convince me otherwise.

Also, I fail at life, and dating, and getting a boyfriend, and human contact, and communicating with people, and fitting in, and oh sky above. Why am I such a failurrrre?!


I just. Need to be really really really emo right now. So. Don't worry about me slitting my wrists or something stupid like that. I'm too much of a coward to try that.


...in fact, I know what (and consequentially - who) caused it.

I. Am suddenly way too caught up in writing my FFVII epic future fic. I love the plot. I love the ending, damnit. I ADORE the ending I've planned for it. WRY must I have so little dedication to this project? And the Saiyuki epic? And the YGO epic? WRYYYYY???? Y__Y


Not to mention NaNoWriMo. *flails* I need a plot, I need a setting, I need some main characters. alkdghakhgdahgalgh less than a month left to decide on what the hell I want to write about this year. Because last year? Was a 400 words long failure. *woe*

Don't believe me? ( Here, have a look. )

See? That's what kind of crap I was trying to write last year. I had no idea where I was taking this. None.what.so.ever.
Ph34r m3. ph34r the author who wishes to out-trump JKR and her bloody potty.
(AHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA.
HAHAHA.
HA.
Can you feel the irony? Can you feel it burn? =/ No? Good for you. >_> )