just a small town girl, living in a lonely world

So recently, I got a reason to look back on all the fics I was supposed to write for several challenge communities. I choked. I fucking choked. Way back when, when I said I had a deathwish for this, I wasn't joking. 279 303 305 320 318, give or take a few. In fact... Only give. There is no taking in this.

Of this completed are: a measly number of 36 38 39 40 41 46 57 60 64 66 72 75 78.
243 241 240 264 263 262 264 279 274 263 260 256 277 268 265 240 still to be written.

( So in my shock (and utter laziness to do anything productive) I offer you the master list of all that's been done and is in progress~ )

Fandom: Kuroshitsuji
Underwater
Hannah
300+ words
G
It's cold and quiet where she's going, but it's not enough to hold her forever. Vignette.

A Demon's Truth
Alois, Claude
300+ words
PG
Alois wanted to hear only the truth and Claude gave it to him. He gave him the demon's truth.

A Kingdom of Lies
Alois, Claude
300+ words
PG
Perhaps Claude understood some aspect of Alois better than he let on. Because everything between them was just a part of the contract.

Conditional
Alois, Claude
400+ words
PG
A demon's love is never unconditional. That's because demons cannot love.

Unrequited Everything
Grell x William
500+ words
PG
There are limits to everything, but Grell blissfully ignores them all.

You Are An Endless Tide
Sebastian, Ciel
300+ words
PG
He's drawn the winning hand, but the art is keeping it till the very end.

You Weave The Darkness Like A Shroud
Sebastian, Ciel
600+ words
PG
You couldn't tell Sebastian from an ordinary human even if you tried. Nothing at all betrayed his true identity.

Tears Never Moved A Mountain
Alois, Claude
200+ words
PG
It doesn't matter to Claude whether or not his little master cries. He does feel aversion to weakness, though.

Take Me
Alois, Claude
200+ words
PG-13
Alois doesn't even know what he's begging for anymore. Shota.

Of A Smile
Alois, Claude
400+ words
PG
Alois has only ever striven for one thing, but it constantly eludes him.

Non-golden Silence
Alois, Claude
400+ words
PG
Silence is golden, but Alois doesn't want it. Not from Claude. He wants to hear everything, everything, and yet...

Hate Me
Alois, Claude
500+ words
PG
Alois never knows what exactly he wants because each moment is uniquely different from the previous.

Somewhat of a Pet Problem
Sebastian, Ciel, cats
200+ words
G
The acts of independence, no matter how small or insignificant, degrade the image of a Lord.


Fandom: Uragiri wa boku no namae wo shitteiru
Control
Hotsuma x Shuusei
1400+ words
PG-13
Hotsuma needs it - too afraid of what would happen if he lost it again. But Shuusei knows that he's come to a point where losing control wouldn't be all that bad.

Oddly Sincerely
Luka x Touko
1100+ words
PG-13
He shouldn't dare. What exactly - she doesn't elaborate.

Today Never Happened Before
Luka x Touko
1000+ words
PG-13
It's not simple between the two of them. They're not even sure if there is anything. And yet...

One Life Is Not Enough For It All
Kuroto x Senshirou
1500+ words
PG-13
No matter how hard Kuroto struggles, it's already too late. Things done cannot be undone and decisions made by someone else cannot be unmade.

One Moment In Time Is Ours
Kuroto x Senshirou
1300+ words
PG-13
They have to live for the moment because it's quite possible that the next day never comes.


Fandom: Katekyou Hitman Reborn
The World Becomes Us
Primo famiglia
6000+ words
PG-13+
This is a story of how it all began. How we began. And how we survived. Primo－verse. Guardians－centric. Chronicle－style./

The Phoenix Didn't Rise
Uni
900+ words
PG-13
This is the darkest hour of the Giglio Nero famiglia.

The Lying Game
Chrome Dokuro, Daemon Spade
400+ words
PG
Life based on lies based on reality. That is the nature of all illusions.

Papillon Symphonie
Chrome-Mukuro
700+ words
PG
Do you know that tale of a Brazilian butterfly who flapped its wings － once － and a hurricane tore down Tokyo?

Non-direction
Giotto, Alaude
150+ words
PG
He only has the vaguest idea of where they are going.

Maelstrom Catchers
Bianchi x Xanxus
4800+ words
PG-13+
Because Daemon Spade isn't the only threat in the mafia world, and because Irie Shouichi only promised a future without the Millefiore. Ten generations is a long time to acquire friends and enemies alike; and more so of the latter, as proven by the Shimon family. Nothing is ever over in the world of the mafia.

In these crossroads of Hell
Tsuna
2200+ words
PG-13+
AU in which ten years later everything went to hell in a handbasked. Tsuna-centric. Dark!fic. Character death.

As the wind blows
Hibari, Chrome, Mukuro
1250+ words
PG+
On the first day off-mission in months things don't quite go as planned. TYL!AU.

All The Things Unsaid
Chrome, Tsuna
550+ words
PG+
Some things are not meant to be spoken. Some actions － not meant to be questioned.


Fandom: Yu-Gi-Oh! 5D's
You Burn Me Away
Jack, DS!Carly
1000+ words
PG+
If loving somebody is hell, then Jack would like to know what hell is.

Thorns to Stardust
Aki, Yuusei
300 words
PG
He toppled her world over, and that's all she'll ever have of him. Relationship study.

Feathers to Thorns
Crow, Aki
300 words
PG
Crow sees Aki. Crow sees what Yuusei can't. And sometimes it hurts all the more for it. Relationship study.

Stardust to Inferno
Yuusei, Kiryuu
300 words
PG
There's always struggle and guilt and regret. There's always used-to-be different. Relationship study.


Fandom: YuGiOh!
Between The Lifelines
Amelda, Anzu
~6000 words
PG-13
It's like a game of 'don't step on the cracks', except the ground is riddled with them and there isn't a way to avoid them all.

Date-blind
Yami Malik, Yuugi Mutou
~300 words
PG+
They're going on a blind date.

Promise a Promise
Thief King Bakura
100 words
PG
Once upon a lifetime, a little boy promised himself...

I Was An Abyss Once
Yami Bakura, Thief King Bakura
2500+ words
PG+
When you've seen an abyss, an abyss has seen you. And when you walk away from it, a piece of it walks with you.

Fly-Away Butterfly
Shizuka, Malik
2500+ words
PG+
The monster is out. And she's not dreaming anymore.

Ide-ality
Mai Kujaku/Valentine, Dinosaur Ryuuzaki/Rex Raptor
350+ words
PG-13-
An idea is just an idea. Except when it's an ideal reality.

A-live
Thief King Bakura, Malik
800+ words
G+
Take one resurrected Thief King, a piece of modern technology, and you've got a disaster on your hands. Citronshipping. Sort of.

Great Divide
Priest Seto, Mahaado
3300+ words
PG-13
Separated from everything they know, rendered invisible in the face of a greater fate, they still have to find a way to live on.

Chance To Be
Ryou Bakura, Anzu Mazaki
1700+ words
PG+
It's a stalemate situation, but they've still got one direction to take.

Rather Be Better
Amelda, Valon
~1000 words
PG
The definitions of what they are to each other are blurry. There's something that may be nothing, or a whole lot of nothings that don't constitute anything.

End Credits
Noa Kaiba
2500+ words
PG+
This is the Virtual World in which Yuugi won. Except his problems didn't end there. Noa's did.

I Will Follow
Honda, Shizuka, Otogi
~1900 words
PG
And they did, across the crumbling land and into the dark.

White Light Out
Otogi, Yami
1000+ words
PG
Some things just aren't meant to work out. Some times the game turns around. Sometimes, it's the strongest player bested.

Our Time Now
Noa Kaiba, Priest Set
900+ words
PG
When you yourself are endless, it's hard to miss an end, a border, a crossing line. But when you breach a certain border, everything changes.

Of All The Mirrors
Ishizu, Seto Kaiba
1100+ words
PG-13+
Of all the mirrors I have seen, yours is the worst. Cracked. Broken. Beyond repair.

Quasi-mode
Malik Ishtar, Yami Bakura
777 words
PG+
It's a eulogy for things that were, could have been, and never will be.

Mawari Kawari
Amane Bakura, Cyndia Crawford/Cecilia Pegasus
1600+ words
PG-13-
There is a monster lying in wait. There is fate waiting to turn. Pervadeshipping.

Firework Romance
Vivian Wong, Otogi Ryuuji
2700+ words
PG-13
It's a lightshow up in the sky. It's a lightshow no matter how you look at it.

The Man in the Wind and the West Moon
Noa Kaiba, Priest Set
~1500 words
PG-13+
Outside the boundaries of the world, in a place where belonging is a curse and not belonging equals freedom, I once met a reflection of somebody I knew.

Sors Immanis Et Inanis
Honda x Mana x Kisara
11600+ words
PG-13+
When the world goes mad on you, maybe this is the only thing you can do to make it through. Supernatural angst with a healthy side-dish of horror and tragedy. Staunchshipping.

Kokoro No Naka
Yami Bakura x Ryou Bakura x Jounouchi Katsuya
2700+ words
PG-13+
It all starts inside. Inside a circle, inside a soul. And when it breaks out... it breaks. Batteryshipping.

How the World Burns
Yami Malik, Yuugi Mutou
4200+ words
PG-13+
"Beautifully," he says and strikes a match to set the world on fire.

A Vertigo of Samsara
Thief King Bakura, Pharaoh Atem
3000+ words
PG+
It wasn't only one time, even if it felt that way. It wasn't only one life, even if it felt that way.

Time Sands Still
Yami Bakura, Mai Kujaku
~5000 words
PG-13
Sand clocks were made to turn - Bakura is convinced of this.

Deconstruction Road
Seto Kaiba, Yami Yuugi
4500+ words
PG-13
The darkest hours are before the sunrise, but sometimes the sun dies out soon after having risen. And when you're in a world of nowhere, nowhere is the only place where you can go.

I have this distinct feeling of having buried myself with a Thiefship fic which I submitted for a contest. It doesn't live up to my own standards of this pairing. |:
Oh, well. Life goes on.

Speaking of life...
I'm still without a job and with no money to pay for this month's rent. Screwed doesn't begin to cover it. Being a student sucks.

On the bright side of things, I have at least one good thing coming up. I don't remember if I mentioned it in summer, but there was a teaching job that I applied for and got to the point of getting an interview to test my skills - except that they never called me back. Well, they put in another ad just recently and this time they called me. And I'm in! The training is at the end of October though, so that puts a bit of a damper on things because I really need to figure out a way to get money before that, seeing how I'll have to pay for the ticket to and from the city where the training is held - 200 km away from where I life. They will provide a place to stay at, though, which is great.

But I'm still holding up! (Even though I've skipped two weeks of university, spending this time at home, sulking about being such a failure at life.) I'm trying to cheer up though. Really, really trying.

ETA: And then I found out that mom never handed in some paperwork for getting some of the tax money back. All she needed was one extra sheet for them to put on my file and she didn't do it because she thought she needed the number of my bank account - which she didn't, and which she never asked to certify. *head/wall* Goddamnit all.

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Also, fic.

Fields Of Dust
Katekyou Hitman Reborn!
Hibari/Chrome
695 words
PG
Because herbivores never matter, right?

For those who are sick and tired of being pranked all through April 1st, I give you something solid. (I'm not saying that links to Rick Rolling aren't solid - I like that song, actually *fails* -, but.)

|| What the eye can't see ||
Death Note
Light, mentions of L
469 words
G+ with some odd/weird/disturbing notions
There's somebody watching him from the dark. There's somebody out there who knows. There is no one.

|| One Thousand Promises ||
Saiyuki
Gojyo, Sanzo
645 words
PG+ with some mention of gore
Maybe some promises were meant to be made to never be kept. Contemplation.

|| Angels walking among us ||
Du-ra-ra-ra!!
Shizuo
536 words
G
Angels are living among us and you wouldn't believe your eyes and ears if somebody told you, if somebody showed you. And you know... it's better that way. Contemplative.

|| For a moment we were ||
Darker than BLACK
Hei, Carmine/Havoc
441 word(s)
PG
They never had it with fireworks and moments of stolen breath.

|| Nights will keep our secrets ||
Yuugiou
Malik Ishtar, Kisara, Thief King Bakura
684 words
PG-13- with some sexual hints
In the darkness, they don't have to fear anything. In the darkness, they can simply... be.

|| Molten snow is only water ||
Yuugiou
Seto Kaiba
780 words
G
Snow is beautiful because it is cold, but after it melts, it turns into colourless water.

|| Across the Sand ||
Yuugiou
Thief King Bakura, Kisara
543 words
G
Across the desert sand they run and chase. Across the desert sand they live.

Finally.

For usagiko - Haine. || PG || Forgiveness Is A Cold Gun - They only deserved this much. For Haine's robbed childhood. For Lily's nightmares. And for the blood of everyone else whose names he no longer remembered. Haine/nameless scientist.


For night_owl_9:

Noa Kaiba. || G || Just A Flicker On Your Screen - Once, he was a normal human child just like you and me. Now he is only that flicker across your computer screen.

Izaya. || G || I Am A Game You Play - He's there to play. And maybe be played. Izaya vs. the world.

L. || G || Perfect For Tearing Apart The Dark - He is a detective, but he could have been anything he wanted.

Whisperer - Because smilypie knows that I want to. Claude/William. Glasses.

Cruelty Has Many Faces - yamikakyuu; shower sex. SuzaLulu. And I'm sorry, but I think I fucked this one up royally.

Distracting - Because I promised yumemiya to rectify the lack of Bruno/Yuusei porn.

I was supposed to be sleeping right now, but I just spent three hours with this idea tossing around in my head. You can see what won. =/
But because I thought up this story while being half-asleep, it's missing roughly 1/10 of the epic dialogue I came up with. And then there was one Saiyuki foursome that kept mingling in-between. Oh well. There's always the next fic.
Also, no, fetusforbrunch, this isn't written for your prompt. This idea has been tossing and turning in my head since the last fic I wrote for these two.

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Pairing: Hannah/Sebastian
Rating: G
Summary: Hannah has an eye for details.

( And a penchant for ruining things. )

nekovampluna - Shirou/Sakura

denshi_no_ultra -- the SHM threesome

night_owl_9; anything with Bakura makes to top of my list. 8D

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It had been a long time since he'd last felt fear, Yami thought, eyeing the pitch black shadows moving in the corners of his makeshift throne room. Inside his soulroom there was nothing he should fear. Or so he'd thought before realising that he, apparently, wasn't the only one there. At first he'd thought that the shadows were static things, created because of the lack of light. They'd been perfectly still, just filling the place like any ordinary shadow would. But then he'd noticed movement within them – only slight in the beginning – and soon found that treacherous darkness was crawling around his property.
They were strange alien creations of shadows. He'd taken notice of them only recently and at first considered their cause to be his steady movement towards regaining his memories. As if they sensed that soon would come the time for them to part and allow him to enter the currently forbidden rooms.
He wasn't so sure anymore.
"Bakura," Yami ground out, rising to his feet and glaring death at the bodiless creations. A low menacing laughter seemed to rise from the walls, seeping through the floors, reverberating throughout the construction and thickening the air.
"I'm waiting," the shadows whispered, echoing in mockery; a disembodied voice that seemed to come from within Yami. And unexpectedly the puzzle which had been his shelter and temple of peace for millennia seemed threatening, an unwelcome place. Dangerous. The mazes and passages disappeared into darkness, entire halls were bathed in it – treacherous-looking and menacing. It was slowly becoming a place where he didn't want to spend much time, if any at all.
Muttering a curse under his breath in his native tongue, Yami hastily left his room and, seeking solace, made to cross over into Yuugi's quarters. The empty room behind his back laughed maniacally, guiding his every step and gritting his teeth and clenching his fists were the only things to keep him from slamming the door behind his back. And as he moved away from his soulroom, he got the distinct feeling that it didn't want to see him returning.

nekovampluna; because G is the BAMF of them all.

~~~

G cursed overlooking the rows of enemies blocking his path. This was unexpected, he thought with annoyance, hands stuck in his pockets with the fingers of his right hand curled around a small item Primo had asked him to find. This assignment wasn't supposed to draw such level of attention from the opposing families, and looking at the small army in front of him, he couldn't even discern which family hadn't gathered its men here. Some of them were even from opposing parties, now all gathered here together. And to think that such a small, utterly insignificant artefact had caused such a commotion!
After considering his options, G sighed and closed his eyes briefly. Not counting the Vongola (and especially Primo) awaiting his return, there was also that planned meeting with a wonderfully cheeky barmaid tonight, and he'd be damned if he missed that. Grim determination settling in his facial features, the first Vongola's storm guardian reached for his weapon. He would have to rip through the rows of his opponents in record time to get to both meetings (and then drop a passing-by mention of this in front of Alaude and – maybe – Daemon just to see them fume).
When G had promises to keep, a mere bunch of ragtag delinquents wasn't going to deter him. He was going to show these idiots one hell of a storm, right here, right now. Not, he smirked to himself in satisfaction, that there would be a single survivor to tell the tale.