lightrobber: (Mimi | I've got to be honest)
# Contemplating life while walking home from shameless book shopping, which I really shouldn't have done, but damn it, I've been wanting to read them and actually own some of them (some others I bought even though I didn't even know they existed before, but. Cheap. Interesting. Vampirates. IDK, man, I haven't read that one yet and I don't even know why I picked it up in the first place.) for years, even. ONLY TWO BOOKS MISSING FROM MY WISHLIST NOW.
Well, and a lot of manga I wish I owned, but. For as long as their prices are so high. Alas.

# An internal monologue with myself on the subject of dinner: "I want meat. Which is fine and okay. But do I want to cook it? (Remember what happened last time - went up to meat stand, browsed through it, imagined putting a knife to the whole chicken to cut it apart, almost threw up, went for salmon chunks in brine instead.) Yeah. So. Do I want meat?"
Solution: Buy meat anyway and put it in the freezer for indefinite amount of time.

# One of my main commandments: Must stop by the tea shelves. Maybe there's something interesting with discount.
(There - almost - always is.)

# I should probably save this money for something else. My education, for example.
Nah, food it is.

# Another commandment of mine: Always stack up on tea, pasta, bread, groats.

# Youdontneedcandyyoudontneedcandyyoudontneedcandy. Oh, fuck it. I want something disgustingly sweet today.

# ...why is this book marked as discounted on their website, when in the store it's for the full price? >/ I wanted that book two years ago. I should call and ask the ones in charge about this.

# ...except I can't dial out of my phone - I'm past the one month validity term. Damn, I need to renew my credit. (Which is funny, because I always have money on my card and it's always the one or two month validity that expires first.)

# Avocado is the first thing in the world to actually creep me out. Why? a) it tastes like a certain kind of (raw) meat, b) its stone is heart-shaped (the actual muscle, not the ~romantic cutesy design), and c) the stone actually bleeds blood red when cut or bruised (and it also tastes like raw meat despite smelling like fir needles - I bit into it accidentally on purpose). I ate my first avocado in life today, and for whatever incomprehensible reason my brain decided/translated it as eating human-turned-fruit thing. I should probably use this premise for a story or something, ffs.
Creeped out. For the first time in life. At the age of 25. Congrats, you weird green fruit. =|

# I paid less for rent (what with the debt I had) than expected. Fuck yesssss. But the earth gas prices are going up again, so the price will climb. Fuck this government. Fuck this world.

# Apparently, we had a country-wide UFO sighting some days ago. Or a bolide, if we believe scientists. Big scary white flash for 3 seconds, in any case. (I missed it. I was sleeping. Would've been fun to see, though.)

# Mom is away in the countryside for unknown amount of time. (Biggest) Part of me hopes she never comes back.

# Figures. Summer comes, and I'm plant-obsessed again. I've been checking ads and hey. Some people sell some interesting stuff for good prices.

# alksjfkdsjaf I FOUND A BEAUTIFUL REPRODUCTION OF A CHINESE PAINTER'S WORK. AND IT'S... UNBELIEVABLY CHEAP, ACTUALLY, AS FAR AS ARTWORKS USUALLY GO. SELF-LOATHING MODE - ON.

# My printer is still fucked up. It refuses to recognise the colour ink cartridge. I think I bought a damaged one (as there's only blue and black ink showing on the test page it printed), but I don't have the check anymore, so I can't go back to them and complainnnn. *woe*

# I'll get some money from a coworker for translating most of her Bachelor's paper. DAMN IT SO ENVIOUS ABOUT THIS. I'VE BEEN DELAYED IN MY EDUCATION-GETTING FOR FAR TOO LONG. D: But YAY, EXTRA POCKET MONEY!

# I hate how loaded the shelves are with Twatlight shit.
But I also lol at the fact that it brought along some - maybe, I don't really know, don't usually read that type of fiction, except for fanfiction (and that's usually pretty bad) - quality vampire and fantasy fiction, which was something you could barely find anywhere in Latvia before. Foreign literature? Consisted mostly of documentaries, art, classics, and crime/horror/detective/adventure books. Classy, bookstores, classy. Apparently we r srs neishun, judging by this.
I don't know what has to happen for anime/manga to receive more attention, though, because up to this point I've only seen a few titles of it here - Princess Ai, Bizenghast, World of Warcraft... and that's it, iirc. Though I've heard there might be something else in one shopping mall for hideous prices, unsurprisingly enough. (Sure, we had an actual anime/manga store, but it was tiny and was always going bankrupt and moving places to the point it became a quest of "Find the anime shop", and I don't think they're renting anything atm. I think, in fact, that their site hasn't been put up yet ever since it went down a year or so ago. But maybe I'm wrong about that one.)

# I keep looking back at that avocado stone, feeling ~uneasy. akdhfkdsf I think it just changed its colour to a more skin-like tone. And now the cuts I made into it look like clotted blood. D:

# I HAD SOME ICON SETS TO MAKE THAT ARE DUE SOMETIME SOON, I SHOULD PROBABLY GO WORK ON THAT.

# And for KHR fans on my list - there's a fun challenge comm [livejournal.com profile] write_and_run that's on its first round atm. Go take a look? It has some nice fic submitted.

ETA because I forgot this special case of stupid. )
lightrobber: (Claude | Hold on to the night)
Is going to be just what the title says.

"Hope to see more from you in the future."

Yes, yes, wonderful. And thank you. I really appreciate all the seldom reviews I get because I generally get nice people commenting on my fics. But how about instead of looking toward my future you check out my past? 'cause I have what? Nine? Ten? fics for this same pairing.
Oh, of course, you wouldn't notice because I don't exactly clutter my FF.net profile with pairings I write for (maybe I should, though? So people can actually wade through all my fic.). And my name isn't even a passing mention on WikiFic list under Revengeshipping/Warshipping (Oh, and Revengeshipping? Is so much better a name for Seto/Amelda. It's actually the first I found in use and used myself for all of a year before another fan came around to inform me that 'u wuz doin eet rong'. Thank you.)

And then I was reminded of why exactly I flounced this pairing, again. With added bonuses. Because 75% of the fandom write it in a manner that makes we want to strangle something. Preferably the author. I've seen precious few fics where they are written well. The depressing majority veers into a rather deconstructive area with the characterisation. And 5% of good characterisation seem to be in fics who are on an apparently permanent hiatus.
What triggered this was a piece of shit I read about one character tied down and blindfolded while four others kissed him and he had to guess who it was. And it contained an author's self-insert. And fuck you, author. Fuck you with a flagpole. [steals and twists a line from LittleKuriboh] Your fic wasn't cute or hot or anything like that. It was - and I don't use this word ever - sick. And retarded. If you happened in-universe, Dartz would have your fucking soul on his platter and he'd throw the card containing it in the fire, making sure even ashes weren't left and I hope it fucking hurts into the afterlife.

Reason I crawled back to Seto/Amelda after years of abandonment? I'm a sucker for hate/love relationship and this was my first actual ship for it. No, YBakura/Malik doesn't count. They're accomplices. And yeah, Sanzo/Gojyo, 6918, Seishirou/Subaru and anything else on my shiplist that fits the bill cannot fill in the gap. You never forget your first love, after all. Though I remember mine with hilarity and oh.my.god.you were so stupid, self; and I'm glad it never progressed. Wasn't even love in the first place, so. These boys have angst and a possible happy ending - a feat no other aforementioned pair has.

So yeah, I'm petty and still butthurt for not being on the WikiFic shippers list as a "known Revengeshipping/Warshipping" author even though I have 9 fics for them which, I believe, is practically the most any other shipper has written, unless I'm missing something. From where I stand, the majority of the mentioned writers don't have more than 2-3 fics. And I have nine. NINE. GODMOTHERFUCKINGDAMNIT. And it's not like you can miss my name. If you search for this pairing on ff.net and hit page two of three (56 fics in total) I'm practically dominating it on par with [livejournal.com profile] dark_age_pearl who has the same number of fics I do and who used to be a good ship friend and valued otherwise, but we fell apart because of... I don't even know. She defriended me one day and that was that. I didn't even get a PM or a sideways comment/email/chatmessage. Yeah, whatever. Fuck you too. I AM STILL BUTTHURT ABOUT THAT TOO, YOU KNOW. YOU WERE MY BEST FRIEND, FFS. I thought we had more in common than one pairing for you to just up and leave without even a hint. But whatever. Your choice. Moving on.
Hilarious part being that I'm at the top of the list for the Mai/Valon pairing which is apparently Conquestshipping with my back-then one fic. Reason why I continued to write for them was, I figured - well, why the fuck not? If I'm on the list, let's write something to have a reason to be all the way up there. Make the shippers proud, etc.
Man, at least I've got the Kadaj/Yazoo part covered. I'll have more than 150 fics for them once I'm done with the challenges and I see only one author who could possibly beat me on it. >_>

Yeah, I'm back to writing Seto/Amelda and it's a broken pairing for me now and will always be because it brings back some pretty bad associations with it. I can't fully enjoy it anymore, but I can't just up and drop it. I'm in a trainwreck and I'm in there willingly. Oh, and I'll keep being butthurt and hateful whenever I wade in too deep with this ship, but it's a price I'm prepared to pay.

So here's the tl;dr bottomline: I'm butthurt about shit in fandom. And I deal.

On a not-so-depressing note - I watched the Making of Kuroshit II. OMG, HANNNNNNAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA. ♥¬♥ sfuesffjgksaklasjdlkgfjdsakhfkjsa
The ending to it was a fucking trainwreck though. Giant mecha? A UFO? Porno? of the Hannah/Ciel variety? YES, PLZ. <3 Claude epically tapdancing. William/cherry trees. Mpreg. CAN SOMEBODY SHOOT SEBASTIAN, PLEASE? SHOOT HIM DEAD. No, wait, don't. Sebastian/Alois. FUCKING WRITE IT FANDOM OR I SWEAR I WILL-- Lol, Moon-to-Earth is my new OTP. Yeaaaaaahhhhhhhhh. Horatio Caine/black sunglasses. It's snowing outside right now.
...yup, trainwreck alright.


EDIT: Because I realised I didn't bring up Muraki, not even in an icon. I CANNOT HAVE A POST WITHOUT MURAKI. /DRAMA
...well. That's also taken care of. Moving on.

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